Blue Screen of Love

Published on 16 January 2022 at 16:14

Some questions have no answers. We assume that the answers to existential questions are buried somewhere deep in the subconscious and we just need to open our mind enough to find the answers. But what if some questions really have no answers at the time we do the asking?

Whilst considering myself good at all kinds of analysis, and employing not only the rational but the irrational in my method, I assumed I could get to the answer somehow. Yet here I am, entangled in a multitude of thoughts and facts that I cannot weave together into something tangible.
The truth about love, platonic as well as romantic, eludes me. Where does the one begin and the other end? What is the difference really, fundamentally? How do you take out the static noise of it all and simply know, without a doubt, that the love you feel is real, that it is love?
Unchanging it is not...final it is not, completely pure it is not...so then what is it?
Having been on the inside looking out and on the outside looking in of the most intricate parts of a love affair with all its subjects and objects and passive aggressive, I am no closer to the light at the end of the tunnel.
The theatrical approach is to be told: Search your feelings! (And may the force guide you!)
But what if Luke searches his feelings...De-fragmenting and Formatting....and when the hourglass runs out he gets the message "this program has performed an illegal operation..."
The blue screen of death follows....reboot and try again...


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